[Astal]

I dunno if anyone here knows me, ive done work on an emu server for a good while then I just lost all joy from it so I quit. (my brain cant adapt to chemical changes and isnt producing the right chemicals and we dont know why).

I just figured i needed to talk to or tell someone this shit.

Im getting covered in hives now, the medication that is safe and will take them away is 55 dollars a week, +230 dollars for 8 months for another, +130 for 1-2 months for another, +70 for 2 weeks for another. Im not asking for money, i have a disability hearing coming up in 2 months it just sucks so bad suffering and getting worse when you know what you have to do and take but cant. I dunno if anyone else here has or knows people with bad health problems but if you do you know what hell it can be.

I mean besides the hives, i have a hormone disorder causing severe headaches, chills, anxiety (also part of the cause of the hives) a damaged disk in my lower back l5. I cant take pain meds for more than 3 days without going through withdrawl because of the "brain not adapting to chemical changes part" and when I do go through withdrawl its like twice as bad as a normal persons.

Im just really upset today mostly because of the hives, the other stuff I can deal with if i dont have hives since i have a loving girlfriend who is soon to be my wife this summer.

:(

I just hate this